So, for the past couple of months, I have been focusing on not trying to control every outcome in my life. Now, I am that person who needs to know the who, what, when, where, why, how, and any other details before I commit myself to something. I need to know the outcome. I need to know “my” outcome. I think it’s from watching too many horror movies where the people just walking into a situation blindly and end up screwed or dead.
This year, I hope to bring new dreams into the physical. I want new experiences, to meet new people, and step outside my comfort zone. I can’t do that if I am trying to control what I see and do. Because, I am not experiencing new things, I am experiencing things I have already preconceived the outcome to in my mind.
How is that exciting?
How is that expanding my wings?
How is that stepping outside my comfort zone – when, in fact, I have already predetermined my comfort zone?
If I want to experience life on a new level, I have to be willing to let go and see what happens. I have to be willing to give up the knowing how and give up the belief I know what I need and want in every situation. I have to let the Universe work for me. I have to let it bring in the people, places, things and events that will help me grow. I have to trust that no matter what, good or bad, the experience is what I need at the time.
It’s not easy giving up control of your life. It’s not easy to just accept what every comes. It’s not easy to just be and not worry about the being. Through making small changes, everyday, I have felt and experienced more happiness, by not trying to control my outcomes, than planning everything down to the last detail. Every day this is something new and it’s not always perfect and happy, but it’s what I need to grow.