I’ve known anxiety for over half my life. We first meet in high school. At first it wasn’t so bad. She would show up every now and then and only hang for a couple of minutes. I would have little flutters when she showed up during important events (important for a teenager..lol) and as quickly as she came, she would leave. As time went on, she started hanging around longer and longer. Our interactions changed from flutters, to sweaty palms, to mini asthma attacks, crying attacks, and constant overthinking.
I’ve tried to break the bond with anxiety many times. We’ve gone months without interaction and at times years. The last couple of years we’ve really been hanging out a lot. I try to end things but she just keeps coming back. You know like the pesky little gnat that won’t stop flying around your ear. At times I’ve let her control me to the point I missed out on taking changes on things I really wanted to do. My constant overthinking had me over analyzing every situation to the point I would talk myself out of having fun, receiving and receiving love, and following my dreams.
As I’ve gotten older and placed more importance on self-love and balance, I’ve learned to handle her a lot better. I don’t let control my emotions or thoughts to the point I become paralyzed with fear. My attacks have become less frequent and my over thinking is getting better. Being out in nature has really helped with finding balance and identifying the things that contribute to anxiety attacks. I also found acknowledging and expressing my feelings during or after the attacks helps with the emotional stress.
Lately, our bond has not been as strong. I’m not saying we have completely ended our relationship, but I’ve learned how to manage and release the control she’s had over me for so many years. So, while she doesn’t visit me as frequently as she used to, I know she’s still around and now I’m more prepared to handle her visits.
Do any of you have an anxiety, and if so, how do you handle it?