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And Still I Celebrate – Wishes Fulfilled

And Still I Celebrate – Wishes Fulfilled

And so we celebrate the ups and downs, and twists and turns. The wishes fulfilled and the ones on the way. We celebrate the bad times because they prepare us for the good.  And through it all, I hope you dance in the sunlight.

I look back on the this year and I celebrate my losses and gains. The beginning of April, I lost my job and thought it was the worst thing that could happen at the moment. I had been working temp for three years and was finally getting hired permanent. I was getting the raise and benefits, I needed, and would be able to work flexible hours. I had filled out all the paperwork and took the drug test and was confident everything would work out. Then, I got an email saying I failed the drug test. How could this be? I had never taken an illegal drug in my life and the only meds I was on was allergy medicine; I did disclose this on the form. So, instead of celebrating my new “security” of having a permanent job, benefits, and amazing pay, I was packing up my desk and turning in my badge. For weeks, I wondered what happened and how could it all go wrong.  How could something I worked and planned so hard for just fall apart? How could I fix it?

I took my daughter out of daycare and became a full-time stay-at-home mom. I began to enjoy not getting up early, being stuck in traffic for up to three hours a day, and being stuck sitting in a cubicle for eight hours. Instead, I spent hours outside playing in the grass with my daughter.  We blew bubbles, went on great adventures, in the backyard, and had picnics under the trees. We went to museums, parks, and took multiple trips.  She was able to experience her first international trip and visit family she had never met. 

Yes, I did worry about money and how I would survive being and stay-at-home mom. I was so used to working and providing for her, and the thought of not having a steady paycheck scared me. But, I decided to put myself and her first. To go against everything I was thought was security and live in the moment. I decided to take a leap into the unknown, and you know what, it all worked out. 

As the days went by, I started realizing my dreams, the ones I really desired, were coming true. I wanted to take my daughter out of daycare and spend more time with her. I want to watch her grow up and enjoy her childhood. I wanted to not be stuck in traffic, three hours a day, and now, I was home waking up when I wanted.  I wished to travel more, and we were blessed to go on four vacations and my daughter got her first stamp on her passport.

For so long, I was concentrating on the things I thought I would be missing by not having a job,  I couldn’t see all the beautiful things I gained – time, love, peace, family, and life. I couldn’t see my wishes being granted. No, it hasn’t been perfect.  I’ve had breakdowns, doubts, and wished for things to be different, because of fear.  But, through it all, I learned to dance and celebrate the things I have, the bad times, and the good. I’ve learned to not be so caught up on how we want our wishes to manifest, because it may not be the pretty picture we’ve envisioned. It may involve losing everything you thought mattered to realize you’ve gained what’s really important. You may cry, scream, ask why, and doubt everything you’ve done, but in the stillness and loneliness, you will realize, it’s all a part of gaining everything you wished for. And while you wait for your wishes to manifest, I hope you dance, because it is when we dance and celebrate, we celebrate all we have now, and welcome all that is to come.

A New Season – New Beginnings

Welcome to a new season and new beginnings!

Hello again!  Hello Fall!  After taking a long needed hiatus, I am back and excited about writing again.  I am excited about the new beginnings coming my way and the new season that’s started.  Fall is my favorite time of year.  For me, it is the season of calm, peace, shedding of old, new beginnings, and magical transformations. For me, Fall is that breath of fresh air I’ve been waiting all year to take.  

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As I come back to writing, with excitement and a peaceful spirit, I hope to connect with more readers, writers, and artists of all kinds. I hope to engage in interesting conversations, learn from you all, and expand my imagination and  look forward to reading new stories, experiences, and messages.  I also look forward to sharing more of myself, with you all and hope my old readers are still around and welcome all new ones. Enjoy this beautiful time, feel free to say hello, tell me about yourself, and what new beginnings you are looking forward to in this new season.

Peace, blessings, and many thanks,

Kim

 

The Only Forever We have is Now

The only forever we have is now, so, let go of the things that do not better your now. The beautiful and not so beautiful thing about life is the ability to let go.  Letting go of old beliefs, patterns, thoughts, people, and, sometimes, dreams.   Some people can let go with ease.  They do not form an attachment to things or people that binds them.  They see the beauty in being in the moment and letting go when the moment is over.  They understand things and people are not meant to stay forever and there comes a time when it’s time to part ways.  Other people, not so much.  Some people cling to things, people, or memories in hope that things will never change.  They hate the idea of change, having to learn new ways, or starting over.

 I am here to say, I am/was one of those people.  I hate starting over, probably because I’ve been forced to start over so many times in the last 10 years.  I wasn’t always like this.  I use to embrace the idea of change with open arms.  I looked forward to new and exciting things.  I didn’t hold on to people but instead let them flow in and out my life easily.   I always looked forward to new possibilities.  As time went by, life happened and I fell into a depression and it was then that I began to hate change.  I hit a point in my life where I would finally get stability then it would be taken away, leaving me with nothing. It was a constant cycle, every two years.  During this time, I held on to people, beliefs, and patterns that were not serving my highest good.  They were not helping me develop as a person or contributing to my mental and emotional well-being.  I held on to these things because I wanted to feel I had some control on my life, even in the mist of all the chaos going on around.  I want to feel I had some stability even though life is completely unstable.  

In reality, there is no guarantee of stability in life.  Life does not promise smooth sailing with no storms or waves.  Life does not give us forever, only now, because now is the only forever we have.  This was a hard lesson for me to learn and it’s an even harder lesson for me to constantly and actively live.  Each day, I am learning to let go of thing that are not meant to be in my future, or my now. Whether it’s people, things, thoughts, or patterns.  I’m learning to part with the things I don’t won’t but hold on to for security.  I’m learning to detach from having the person and live in the feeling and moment.  I’m allowing people, things, and beliefs to flow easily through my life and only keeping what I need at the moment.  I learning to embrace change and the unknown while releasing fear and judgement.  The most important thing, I’m learning, is to allow life to give me what I need and take from me what I don’t and not try to control it.  I’m embracing the forever of now.

 

You Hold the Power to Change Your World

You hold the power to change your world – embrace it.  Whether you realize it or not – everything you do, every thought you think, and every decision you make creates your world.

 

 I know sometimes people think they are stuck in a situation and there’s no way out.  In reality, there is a way out.  To get out the situation we don’t want, we have to change the way we see our world. We also have to change the way we think and see ourselves.  We can’t see ourselves as powerless and fragile.  We can’t see ourselves and weak and unimaginative because these are they thoughts that keep us trapped in an unhappy world.  Once you change your way of thinking you start to see that you have power to change your world.  If you really want to change your world and live a life that is fulfilling to you, you have to believe that you deserve that life.  You have to believe that you are worthy of all the things you wish and dream about.  You have to change your way of thinking. 

Change starts with small things. Change one bad or negative thought for a more positive one.  Yes, it may take time, and it may be hard at first, but it will work.  Below are ways create the life you want and deserve.

  1. Talk bout the things your do want – Talk about all the things you want in life and let the don’ts fall to the side.  Focusing on the things you do want makes you appreciate the things that are going right more.  Talking about all your dreams and aspirations opens the door for more of the good stuff to come in.  Soon you will realize that you have a lot more good things coming in than bad thoughts going out.
  2. You want to have a more positive day – Wake up in the morning and focus on the positive.  Focus on the sunlight coming through your window, the birds singing, or that great shower you’re about to take. Be excited about the day ahead and all the fun things you can do, even if it’s laying on the couch watching TV.  If it’s something you like and enjoy, do it.  Make your day a day you can enjoy.
  3. Hate being stuck in traffic – Instead of complaining about being stuck in traffic, take that time to listen to your favorite song, listen to podcast you always wanted to get around to, take time to call that family member you’ve been thinking about, or take joy in missing that meeting you didn’t want to attend anyway.
  4. Need more fun in your life  – Think like a child.  Stop believing just because you’re an adult you can’t have fun.  Go to the playground and swing on the swings, go on a new adventure in your own town and discover new things, watch your favorite cartoons, or lay in the grass and watch the clouds. Remember what it was like to enjoy the small things.
  5. Tire of your monochrome life  – Replace the blah with color.  Change up the wall colors or, if you can’t paint, buy some fun colorful artwork for your wall.  Heck create your own art and let the creativity flow.  Buy new bedding or a colorful new shirt. Be daring, be colorful, be bright. 
  6. Say no to others and yes to you – Decide how you want to spend your time and don’t apologize for it. Learn the beauty in saying no. Don’t spend your time with people you don’t want to be around. Don’t go to places that don’t interest you.  Don’t feel you owe other’s your time. You owe you your time. Spend the time doing things and with people who make you happy and don’t let other’s make you feel like you owe them your time. 

These are just some ways of changing your now world to create the world you want.  You will surprised how making small changes can create a major shift in your life.  As you start a making these small changes, you invite more things of what you do want into your life.  You open the door to endless possibilities.  You open the door to a whole new world and a whole new you.  Remember, you have believe you are worthy and deserve the life you want. Once you do that, start thinking more positive, and making small changes that make you happy.  Then, one day, you will wake up and realized you’ve created the life you want.

Peace and blessings Friends!!

Wrong Turn, Right Path

Just because you take a wrong turn doesn’t mean you’re not on the right path.  There are many side roads that take us to beautiful and scary places.  What you may feel is a wrong choice, in your path to growth, may just be what you need to understand your path more.

Nothing is always black and white or straight forward.  Side roads, mountains, oceans, and black holes are some of the “wrong turns” we encounter in life. Yes, they can be obstacles, but they are also lessons.  We encounter these things to make us stronger.  Take what you need, learn, process, and apply it to what you need to grow.  Leave what is not needed- you know the extra baggage.  Look for the beauty in these wrong turns and overcome your fears of the unknown.  The next part of your journey awaits you.

Don’t be afraid to walk alone

There comes a time  when you have to walk your own path.  There’s something inside that’s calling and you can’t ignore it any longer.  You realize that you don’t belong  in the world you have been trying to fit in for so long.  You know there is more out there and you have to find it.

It’s going to be scary at times.  Sometimes, you will want to  turn around and go back to the comfort and safety of your old life.  Other times, you will want to run and experience more because of the joy you feel inside.  Many times, you will feel like your life is stagnant and you are not accomplishing anything.  These are the times when you are learning the most.   These are the times when you need to really listen to that voice inside of you.

No one can walk this path for you.  Not everyone is going to see your passion or drive.  Not everyone is gong to understand.  All that matters is you do.  Don’t be afraid to walk alone.  It may be the best walk you’ve every taken.

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