The only forever we have is now, so, let go of the things that do not better your now. The beautiful and not so beautiful thing about life is the ability to let go. Letting go of old beliefs, patterns, thoughts, people, and, sometimes, dreams. Some people can let go with ease. They do not form an attachment to things or people that binds them. They see the beauty in being in the moment and letting go when the moment is over. They understand things and people are not meant to stay forever and there comes a time when it’s time to part ways. Other people, not so much. Some people cling to things, people, or memories in hope that things will never change. They hate the idea of change, having to learn new ways, or starting over.
I am here to say, I am/was one of those people. I hate starting over, probably because I’ve been forced to start over so many times in the last 10 years. I wasn’t always like this. I use to embrace the idea of change with open arms. I looked forward to new and exciting things. I didn’t hold on to people but instead let them flow in and out my life easily. I always looked forward to new possibilities. As time went by, life happened and I fell into a depression and it was then that I began to hate change. I hit a point in my life where I would finally get stability then it would be taken away, leaving me with nothing. It was a constant cycle, every two years. During this time, I held on to people, beliefs, and patterns that were not serving my highest good. They were not helping me develop as a person or contributing to my mental and emotional well-being. I held on to these things because I wanted to feel I had some control on my life, even in the mist of all the chaos going on around. I want to feel I had some stability even though life is completely unstable.
In reality, there is no guarantee of stability in life. Life does not promise smooth sailing with no storms or waves. Life does not give us forever, only now, because now is the only forever we have. This was a hard lesson for me to learn and it’s an even harder lesson for me to constantly and actively live. Each day, I am learning to let go of thing that are not meant to be in my future, or my now. Whether it’s people, things, thoughts, or patterns. I’m learning to part with the things I don’t won’t but hold on to for security. I’m learning to detach from having the person and live in the feeling and moment. I’m allowing people, things, and beliefs to flow easily through my life and only keeping what I need at the moment. I learning to embrace change and the unknown while releasing fear and judgement. The most important thing, I’m learning, is to allow life to give me what I need and take from me what I don’t and not try to control it. I’m embracing the forever of now.